So.... an update.
I am going to create a new livejournal seperate from this one, and abandon this one. It's served me well, but I'm kind of this whole Renaissance of the Emmett thing right now, or on the tail end of it, at least.
To conclude the last post and give news of the life:
Things did not work out with the young lady I mentioned extensively in the last post. They did not work out at all. As in, I completely misread every social cue, probably screwed up the dance, and then did every possibly stupid thing I could do to destroy any chance. Of course, that's probably for the best, because now that I look back at things, I have absolutely no idea what i saw in her.
I spent several months in a deep depression that lead to introspecion, an artistic revival, extreme nihilism, and a sense of confusion, which lead me search out more knowledge (ironically, knowledge makes you perpetually more confused), and ended in me becoming deeply enamoured with postmodern philosophy and the ideas fo subjectivity and social construct, which I have now played over in my mind so many times I would say I was enlightened if not for the realization that I know absolutely nothing, and that additional knowledge ensures I know nothing. I had some great pilosophical revelations during my depression, and I wish I'd written them down, because now everything solidifying back away from te abstract and contemplative, and I need to presrve those thoughts I had.
My depression ended in Germany some time, which is also where I met a very charming young lady who I flirted with and who flirted back. I'll write a full post on Germany some other time.
Came back to the US, got a job on a farm, got laid off, got rehired part time, just like last year, had an amazing party, and becoming increasingly sociopolitically active.
Write more, mostly philosophical, on the new livejournal, porbably over the weekend.