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Aug. 21st, 2008 @ 11:23 am Right, an update and news
So.... an update.

I am going to create a new livejournal seperate from this one, and abandon this one. It's served me well, but I'm kind of this whole Renaissance of the Emmett thing right now, or on the tail end of it, at least.

To conclude the last post and give news of the life:

Things did not work out with the young lady I mentioned extensively in the last post. They did not work out at all. As in, I completely misread every social cue, probably screwed up the dance, and then did every possibly stupid thing I could do to destroy any chance. Of course, that's probably for the best, because now that I look back at things, I have absolutely no idea what i saw in her.

I spent several months in a deep depression that lead to introspecion, an artistic revival, extreme nihilism, and a sense of confusion, which lead me search out more knowledge (ironically, knowledge makes you perpetually more confused), and ended in me becoming deeply enamoured with postmodern philosophy and the ideas fo subjectivity and social construct, which I have now played over in my mind so many times I would say I was enlightened if not for the realization that I know absolutely nothing, and that additional knowledge ensures I know nothing. I had some great pilosophical revelations during my depression, and I wish I'd written them down, because now everything solidifying back away from te abstract and contemplative, and I need to presrve those thoughts I had.

My depression ended in Germany some time, which is also where I met a very charming young lady who I flirted with and who flirted back. I'll write a full post on Germany some other time.

Came back to the US, got a job on a farm, got laid off, got rehired part time, just like last year, had an amazing party, and becoming increasingly sociopolitically active.

Write more, mostly philosophical, on the new livejournal, porbably over the weekend.
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Jan. 21st, 2008 @ 01:29 pm Right, then
I was going to post a rant here, but I don;t feel like it. Also, i got a myspace and will probably be doing most of my ranting there, where there's a wider local audience.

Anywho, i am excited and nervous and contemplative and amorous. I met a girl, you see. Well, technically, I met her acouple of months ago- her name is Emma (any jokes and I'll kill you), she's a freshman, and she was a kind of stagehand/chorus member in Cats, until the director put all of the chorus members into the cast, and she became a full cast member. I guess we kind of connected during the play itself, maybe a bit. She went to my cast party. We spent some more time together later when we went to see A Christmas Carol at the new Guthrie down in the cities. We spent most of the time at the theatre there together, as well as a signifigant portion of the ride home. She's in speech, so we've seen eachother at a few meetings for that. Anyway, i was looking for a date to Snowball (winter dance), and everyone kept on suggesting all these different people, but especially Emma. I by that time was already developing a crush, so i went ahead. I was too nervous to ask though. i had declared my intention to do soto a few friends, but was too much of a coward. Then, one day, I decided i would. I'm sitting there in homeroom, having made up my mind I would ask her, and her friend walks in, stands nextto my desk, and gives me a glare

"Have you asked her yet?"
"She's been waiting all wekk for you to ask her to snowball. Ask her. Now."
"Oh... ok."

So I go and attend my classes, keeping a lookout. I don't have psych that day, so I go to the commonsto eat early and I see her there. I get nervous and can;t remember how I had decidedto ask her. So I walk up

"Hey, Emma, I'm going to take you to snowball"
*awkward silence*
"Right then.... so.... see you on monday, then"
*awkward silence*

The date itself went OK. I got dropped off at her house by Maura, and Emma looked... well, she looked bloody stunning, is what she looked like. So our two friends, a hispanic couple, arrive, and we go eat. Good food, easy enough conversation. I think she must have had something on her mind; she didn;t laugh as much as she usually does- either that or I just epically failed at being funny or amusing in any way. At the dance itself, she seemed a bit shy about dancing. She spent most of the time with another freshman girl, friend of hers. till, i managedto get in at least one good dance, to Van Morrison singing "Brown Eyed Girl". Overall, a pretty good first date, I think.

But yeah, I'm still nervous. She seemed to like me a lot before, and her friends seem to indicate that she did, but she seemed kind of cool towards me at the dance. Maybe she justdoesn;t like to dance. Should I take her to a movie? How long can I keep up dating anyone without a car, anyway? I'm confused and whatnot.
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Dec. 30th, 2007 @ 10:33 pm Yay I iz updating!!
From this point on, my jounral shall contain small updates on my life puncuated by angry rants about things I find hypocritcal and dire predictions of doom.

Coming up: Why the hubbub about the swastikas at St.Cloud State is stupid, and such.
Later: Why women need to be eligible for the draft, damn it all.
After that: Why I hate the Special Education department and all it stands for.

Also, coming up: What I would have done if I were Bush and it was still 2001.
as well as: Holy crap, Pakistan is going to have some manner of u[pheaval and we will all die horrible flaming deaths. Crapcrapcrapcrapcrap.
Moreover: I hate the English, not as a people, but as individuals. Each and every one of them. Not really. Or am I?



ha ha,

Anywho, on with the personal update. I totally was in Cats this year at the Theatre. And it rocked. Because damn it all, I can be a fat cat. And an old cat. With palsy. And alzheimers. Or something.

Also, I love writing in sentnce fragments and using improper punctation! and having runnon sentancez and mispelingg everythang and making self-depricating obersavations about my writing abilities. So there.
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Mar. 30th, 2006 @ 06:01 pm go there. now.
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Mar. 18th, 2006 @ 03:47 pm stuff
Happy day after St.Patrick's day!
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Feb. 25th, 2006 @ 10:06 pm I steal things. from terry. buwahahahahahahaha
1. Who are you?

2. Are we friends?

3. When and how did we meet?

4. Do/have you ever had/have a crush on me?

5. Would you kiss me?

6. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.

7. Describe me in one word.

8. What was your first impression?

9. Do you still think that way about me now?

10. What reminds you of me?

11. If you could give me anything what would it be?

12. How well do you know me?

13. When's the last time you saw me?

14. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?

15. Are you going to put this on your LiveJournal and see what I say about you?
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Feb. 14th, 2006 @ 09:54 am stuff
Do you watch the Gilmore Girls?: No

Have you ever enjoyed listening to Jack Johnson?: no. who the hell is he?

Do you listen to Christian rock? No. Christianity is cool, and rock is cool, but two goods don;t always make a better. In this case, they make a worse.

Have you ever seen or enjoyed watching the O.C.?: no.

Do you have one or more Britney Spears C.D.?: No.

Do you regularly watch the news?: yes, often.

Which radio stations are your favorites?: Minnesota Public radio. I love the prarie home companion.

Are you a Lost fanatic?: nope

Do you have a song by Ozzy Osbourne in your library?: No.

Queen?: Nein.

Alanis Morissette?: Nope.

Do you watch Family Guy regularly?: yes.

King of the Hill?: yes.

---Admit it---

Do you read trashy romance novels often?: Never.

Do you really work out every day?: pretty miuch. I'm in wrestling out of season maybe every other day.

Have you eaten chocolate in bed?: No.

Have you ever eaten an entire pint, or more, ice cream by yourself?: No.

Have you ever spent an entire day in bed without being sick?: No, not even when i WAS sick..

Have you eaten nothing but junk food for a week straight?: No.

Do you shower every single morning, no exceptions? No. I smell bad.

Have you ever gone to school/work only 15 minutes after waking up?: yes.

Do you ever "forget" to give an xmas present & instead keep it for yourself?: no.

Do you sing obnoxiously in the car when you're driving alone?: no. I don't drive

Do you sing obnoxiously in the shower when no one's home?: yes.

Do you go nights without brushing your teeth?: I brush once a day, in the morning. I have bad teeth.

Have you ever watched a little kid's show when you were over 12?: To my greatest shame, yes. I no longer do.

Have you ever looked forward to going to school?: almost always.

---The Necessary Love Questions That Aren't So Necessary---

Have you ever had an explicit dream involving your crush?: No.

...Did it include a broom closet?: …not applicable.

Have you ever pretended your crush was with you when they really weren't?: No.

Did you draw for your first crush back in elementary school/preschool?: no.

(Girls/gays) Have you ever asked a guy out?: No.

(Guys/gays) Have you ever liked a girl but didn't ask her out b/c you were unsure?: Yeah.

Have you and a (past or present) significant other ever made an 'Our Song'?: no.

Where's the most unusual place you've ever kissed/made out/had sex? i have never been kissed.

Have you ever written a poem/story about your lovelife? Yes. It's a self-indulgent pity-fest.

Have you ever listened to a song repeatedly just b/c it reminded you of your crush?: no

Have you ever spent over an hour thinking about nothing but your crush?: No

Do you reread meaningless AIM convos just because theyre with your crush?: No I do not have AIM or a crush.

Have you ever reconsidered liking someone because of their appearance?: no.

Have you ever liked someone solely for their appearance?: yes, sadly.

---The Questions You Love: Completely and Utterly Pointless Ones---

Do you eat all the servings in the food groups on a daily basis?: no.

Have you ever been anal about cleanliness or organization?: not really cleanliness. Organization, maybe.

Have you ever been treated for OCD? No, aspergers.

Do you own a graphing calculator?: no

Have you ever been to South America or Africa?: No.

Have you ever owned a Klutz book or kit?: umm... what?

Do you know how to knit?: no

Do you have a cellphone or iPod with a patterened cover?: I have neither cell nor ipod.

Have you ever written song lyrics yourself and put them in your profile?: No. not yet.

Do you keep a diary or journal (online or on paper)?: yeah. I'm posting this on it.

Did you ever want to be an astronaut or a teacher when you were a kid?: no. though maybe a professor or at least high-school teacher if i can't get through post-college educations, such as medical school (perhaps)

Do you own a striped sweater?: i think so.

How often do you take a bubble bath?: never

When you open your closet, what is the dominant color of your clothes?: brown, black, green.

---Truly Unusual This or That Questions---

Baskin Robbins or Coldstone?: Coldstone.

Sees or Godiva?: what?

America or Canada?: America. Once you get past the crusty exterior of hicks and rednecks, the cool americans shine through.

Physics or chemistry?: I'm not too big on either, but probably physics. I prefer biology overall.

Earphones or headphones?: Headphones

chocolate brown or teal?: brown

Earrings or a ring?: neither

Commitment or casual dating?: as of yet, neither

Harry Potter or Lord of the Rings?: LOTR, with HP closely following.

Fly or road trip?: Road trip.

Starbucks or Peetes?: neither

Athletics or academics?: Acedemics, very very very closely folowed by arts.

---Another Wave of Random Questions---

Do you know what a geisha is?: no

What is your favorite Disney movie?: I dunno. Black Cauldron?

Have you seen 8mm?: no

If so, did you enjoy it?: didn't see it.

Do you have a more classic style or do you stay up-to-date (clothes wise)?: classic.

How much jewelry do you own?: a sparse scattering that i never wear.

What year do you graduate high school in?: 2009, i think.

Have you memorized the rejection hotline, just in case? No.

Have you ever given someone the rejection hotline as your number?: what the deuce is the rejection hotline?

Have you ever eaten at a food court?: yes

Have you ever bought clothes at Sears?: no.

Do you own any Care Bears memorabilia?: no

Do you have a quilt on your bed?: no

What color is it?: no.
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Feb. 11th, 2006 @ 08:48 pm stuff
wow, I haven't updated in.... forever.

I think i'll actually start updating more often in the near future.

And i started reading a book about Grainne Mhaol. It's good.
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Dec. 25th, 2005 @ 03:38 pm stuff
why is it that every time i think of an idea, someone else thinks of it too?

I had the idea for over a year, just now announced it, started researching, and found someone also had the idea about a year or three ago and is doing it.

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Dec. 25th, 2005 @ 03:07 pm stuff
I shall make a musical called "Grainne Mhaol: The Pirate Queen." It shall be the true story of Grainne Mhaol, the great Irish pirate queen. it will have several existing songs, including "Oro Se Do Bheatha Abhail", which is a gaelic song about her. it will also have new songs. She was a tall woman, an irish pirate, who learned the trade from the spaniards. She was twice widdowed, twice imprisoned, pardoned by Queen Elizabeth, and died in her bed at an old age. She once learned that her lover was kidnapped and killed, and in retaliation, she slaughtered an entire village. When she went to court for piracy once, she had her whole 200-man pirate band with her, and they came in stamping and clapping with beating drums to meet the judges of England. When she treatied with Queen Elizabeth, the queen had to stand on a stool to slap her hand in a symbol of agreement. She oncce sailed up the Thames into the heart of London to demand audience with the queen. This is all true, too. A 16th century irishwoman who kn ew no english but spoke excellent gaelic, latin, and, i assume, Spanish. It will be a most wonderful story about life on the high seas with strong tints of fighting sexism, flightig for freedom, irish nationalism, and general awsomeness. I must study her more and write the musical someday. It would be all irish music, too.
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